mindlesskiller

well im bored as fuck and thougth what the fuck.. i figured id update cuz its been atleast 9 months since i have... but yeah i am out my depression state of mind.. it was funny cuz i just felt bloody bad about my self.. and being sad sucks cuz it makes u fat i put on 24 lbs but its str8 i found something that took me out of my saddness and its playin my bass.. oh man i love it so ive been playin for like 7 months now and im in a band we are called CONSOLI its latin it meens together but still alone and i love the music im makin i have errything in the world right now band a good job and a girlfriend like what else could i want we besides and ice cold budweiser out the bottle mmmm.. so yeah im 18 in 3 weeks its gonna be cool gonna go the the teeter bar oh yeah.... but yeah last night was grunge seans 21 birthday and i was muthat fuckin wasted it was awesome... i made a big mistake tho i cheated on my g/f wit this girl tara but i was wasted so fuckin drunk i dont know how i even made it home last night but i called her and told the story and im so fuckin glad she didnt kick my ass to the curb i honestly love this chick dude and ya the filthee 1 has said that about alota girls but kelsey is different than other females thats prolly why i felt the world biggest fuckin scum rag in the galaxy but yea errything is str8 now and i happpy but im off to eat pizza and chillax with the woman for a while.....

-filthee

another sleepless night mor dirty dave! wow!

cant sleep and i dont know why, like around nine i was so tired i could pass out anywhere then i go home eat the lay down and now it like almost five in the morning.... i hate pulling all nighters

so yeah chilled with sean on saturday.. watched the documentary on kurt cobain! idk man hes was a very sad/strange guy.. watched a lil bit of the original texes chainsaw massacre bbut got detracked by cookin a but load of food.. then watched secret of the oooz! scott came over played guitar .. drove sean home! me and scott came back to my house made more food, watched jackass and beavis and butthead

today woke up picked up sean
went shoveling made some money
went back to my house to grab his amp and his paul
went to dans house to watch scott and dan pratice on some songs
played some halo
went home watched freddy got fingeren wit my sister and yer friends!
SHOWERED!! funny huh!
try'd to sleep DIDNT WORK
yeah!

lets see what happened last night?

met up with grunge sean chilled at my house for a while and listened to some music. wemickey called he had some whiskey!1 met up with jen in the library, went to the luandry mat to get warm. saw suzanne, wedgie, flava flav, and steve... then went to the train station to meet up with wemike, waited for scott in dunkie then went to jens house to start our drinkin yeah it was fun .. scott left, then jens mom came home so we left and asked shawn if we could drink in his luandry room and shit.. then shawn kicked my in th face.. dammit that shit hurt really bad.. oh well it was thuglicious's fualt anyways.. so yeah so thuglicious decides to act drunk! and fuckin totaly ruining erryone night.. gets us kicked outa the building gets the cops called on us, tells my mom i got him drunk, and tells his mom all this shit. the cunt cals my cell phone sayin shes gonna kill me and shit FUCK U SHARON U FUCKIN DRUNKEN SKANK BITCH!! so yeah after all that happened sean and jen start talkin shit about me like right in my face!! i hate this place i call her to get her drunk and shit ya kno to have a good time and she starts talkikn shit becuase shes to much of a pussy to admit that she said shed never hook up with a black guy!! derr! i told him that cuz he wanted to know its not like i said u caled him a nigger!!! but w/e im sick of these stoughton faggots haten on me over some bulshit!!! BLOW ME STOUGHTON!!! 6 more months and i never have to see u faggots again! well cept craig, chris, and brendan but thas only cuz they are some kick ass kids and yeah man!!

so yeah today was wicket cool..

i had the best dream last night... wicket weird but craziest!

woke up
called craig
got yelled at by the moms
walked to craigs
on the way kaite saw me and picked me up
dropped my off at c-shizzles
hung out with jen, kellie, and ashley
saw kellie nipple piercing
played guitar for a lil
then errone left
so me and craig search his house for food
made stake and beans! lol
put up craigs mo hawk
listen to some cds we havent listened to in forever
went to the V for soda and to play pool
wen to the music store
SAW MY PRETTY BASS :::I WILL BUY U WITHIN THE NEXT TWO WEEKS::
went to my house ate pork
played with my bb gun
then craig left
now im talkin to thuglicious on the phone!!!

my girl, my girl dont lie to me! tell me where did you sleep last night? in the ponds, in the ponds. where the sun dont ever shine i would shiver the whole night through.
sorry i just love that song

anyways, so i was readin all the homies journals and junk so i figured id update mine. in the past months there has been some shitty time and some awesome times.. the shitty times would be when i found out chris was arested on x-mas eve al because yaritza is a jealous ass fuckin bitch.. yaritza i hate you i hope u live a fuckin miserable life. what you did was some bullshit and yer mad lucky i havent seen you.. ::cunt:: so yeah xmas was pretty cool got halo 2 and some clothes freedy got fingered, spriderman 2.. the NIRVANA BOX SET<-- good shit its a must hear if your a nirvana fan.. lets see xmas night got gave jenn a bottle of wine anf i got mad stoned, then met up with grunge sean and did come c+c's and had a convo on stupid shit.. my dad called me on xmas but i didnt want to talk to him.. i meen why should i? that dude takes off for almost 5 years no calls, no mail, nothing and he thinks ima be all lovey dovey and shit FUCK HIM!!! i know i should just talk to him, and i will, if he wants to talk to me come down here and talk to me as a MAN and talk to me.. where were u when i needed you dad? ive just been chillin going to school.. i just finished my english and us1 class last week. i graduate june 2!!! then im going back to job corps late june or early july.. HOPEFULLY... i got to spend a whole week with veno last month. mad fun dude but i feel that me and him are really starting to drift away from each other as friends.. he has his life nad i have mine.. its hurts cuz i feel like im loosing a brother ya know. like i can openly say that i love veno as my brother. him and my mom think that im seriously falling down the drain.. when all im doing is school and im startin my new job soon... but anyways i met this kid from school. scot and i are gonna start a band soon with me on the bass or lead vocals idk yet, i hope is in the band.. but scott only plays metal and i really dont wanna make meatl music. i want a hard rock, grunge sound.. anyways i hooked up with this chick like 2 weeks ago and i i dont regret it but it was kinda a mistake.. see me scoot carlie and amanda went to venos to get some beers and chill out right i camped everyone like 12 beers biznatch so i was pretty drunk. so i told scott i was gonna lay down is the back of his blazer during the ride home.. for some reason carlie wanted too also.. out of no where me and her just startin hookin up.. but i kinda liked her friend amanda so yeah i think i fucked any chances with amanda.. thing is scott likes carlie!!! :::shit on me::: so when amanda called me the nexted day, i had to lie out of my ass for her not to talk to me anymore, bros before hos ya know (not callin them hos) cuz they were wicket cool.. i cut my hair to my neck thats still pretty fucking short DUDE MY HAIR WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF MY CHEST!!! so after i cut it i died it like a maroonish color it looks pretty sweet.. I GOT A CELL PHONE yeah coolest xmas gift ever.. but 2day i was lookin for some cool tones to download and they had cemetarty gates by pantera so fuck yeah i downloaded it. its pretty sweet... idk man i stopped blazing for a while 6 wholoe days.. hey its a start... i got the other side of my lip peirced or should i say i did it myself... yeah dude its awesome.. but im gonna go and watch the movie that shawn let me borrow.. 8==D ((
lol

Love,
Dirty Dave

hey whats up.. it been a while i dont reayy apdate much but w/e.. idk man school was pretty sweet and easy im out in 6 more months ill i need to do is get another job and finally pay for it.. i have some luandry to do 2morra and i have to clean the hallways upstairs.. but ya its ok

ihad the cariest dream today i was fell asleep watcing FUEL tv and i had a dream i found this "underground apartment/skatepark" and i walked around tinking i was still awake i thought it was so real i meen i heard myself say am i in stoughton like it was more than a fantasy dude but anyways i met this chick im my dream and i banged her like a screen door in a tornado!

got into a fight with my mom today but i felt for yelling at her. early today i dropped my cat on amandas head and it cut her lip dude i felt so bad and my mom yelled at me i told amanda i was sorry and stuff.. SORRY AMDAMA!!! anyways my mom got me a bass for x-mas i cant wait to learn how to play that sucka chris and craig are gonna teach me the fine art of the bass guitar..

well im out my tv is calling my name and i need a cig but im all out SHIT!

Dirty Dave

i leave u with a song:
SCHOOL-Nirvana

Won't you believe it
It's just my luck
Won't you believe it
It's just my luck
Won't you believe it
It's just my luck
Won't you believe it
It's just my luck

No recess
No recess
No recess

Won't you believe it
It's just my luck
Won't you believe it
It's just my luck
Won't you believe it
It's just my luck
Won't you believe it
It's just my luck

No recess
No recess
No recess

You are in high school again (x8)

No recess (x7)

At Least 5 Dead, 2 Wounded In Nightclub Shooting
Witnesses: Alleged Gunman Went Onto Stage, Fired Shots

POSTED: 10:32 pm EST December 8, 2004
UPDATED: 12:33 am EST December 9, 2004

COLUMBUS, Ohio -- At least five people died and two others were wounded after a shooting at a Columbus nightclub on Wednesday night, NBC 4 reported.

FeedRoom


Nightclub Shooting





The shooting took place shortly after 10 p.m. at Alrosa Villa, located at 5055 Sinclair Road.

Two members of the heavy metal band Damageplan were reportedly shot and killed, including Dimebag Darrell, formerly with the band Pantera, NBC 4's David Wayne reported. The other band member's name was not released. The alleged gunman also died at the scene, Wayne reported.

Shortly after the band began playing its first song, a man reportedly ran onto the stage and began shooting, according to a witness who identified himself as Sean. Some members of the audience reportedly thought the man running onto the stage with a gun was part of the band's act, NBC 4's Erin Tate reported.

Witnesses said that several shots were fired at the band. Witnesses said that a bouncer at the club tackled the alleged gunman before that person was shot and killed. It was unclear as to whom shot the alleged gunman.

NBC 4 reported that of the surviving victims, one person was in critical condition while the other was in fair condition. Several others were treated at the scene, suffering from various injuries.

Alrosa Villa is a popular north Columbus nightspot for young adults, featuring rock and heavy metal bands, NBC 4 reported.

According to the band's Web site, Damageplan was touring nationally. It performed in Buffalo, N.Y., on Tuesday night and had a concert scheduled in Flint, Mich., on Thursday.

Damageplan featured former Pantera artists Dimebag Darrell and Vinnie Paul. The pair were joined by vocalist Patrick Lachman and bassist Bobzilla, according to their Web site.

Watch NBC 4 and refresh nbc4i.com for additional information.

well its been a few weeks shit man i can remeber when i use wait til the end of the day just to type my daily entries but i stopped when the summer ended yeah man it was an awesome summer dude and im looking foward to the next one i dont im 17 in school doing well but losing to criag and i fuckin fight all the time im startin to get confused with my life and wondering if im gonna do good ya know a lot has happpend to me on a short period of time i got cuple of girlfriend hung made and lost friends got drunk stoned tried outher things some were bad and mistake but ulearn from mistakes stoughton is lonely i lost my job at the taxi service for listening to the radio while cleanin cars but hey its cool i get a new one soon idk man


lets got drunk with jen and sean n chris got caught in my house with a 30 rack and whiskey umm schools dope man yeah doin well
eric wants to kick my ass cuz tiffany said she gave me heador whatever but its a bullshit lie so eric being mad gay about OR so ive heard form alex..
WHO STOLE BABY JESUS??? BILLY RYAN? eric? MIKE S. CAVINO COME ONE MAN LET ME KNOW ITS KILLING ME!!!
saw chris 2day for the 1st ina week hes been on house arrest smoked and shit yeah craigs mad weird errything pisses him off idk he needs to chill!

well i have been a little busy with work and school and chillin with chris every day.. weel lets see i went to brendans on saturday to buy a quater of pot but he didnt want to drive back to brockton to get so i chilled there with him katie and sandra smoked a lil bit and then went to mcdonalds and stop and shop then to get some butts. then i was beggin brendan to seel me his bb gun but he couldnt find it so we went to walmart to buy a rifle and its the shit... so lastnight me and chris went to shamong woods to kill some foxes skunks ect.. but didnt find any which sux cux we where like a mile and a half in the woods then we shot some mutha fuckers windows than ran back into the woods lol sux for him..... so anyways school was cool i have ANOTHER fucking paper to write and i have a mid-term this thursday but its cool cuz its open notes and i take all my notes and then some A+ here i come.. well my job licks ball i was there for a week and now they only want me to work on saturdays to clean cars so i think ima have to find a new one 2morra but its cool.. my mom caLLED The cops on me today cuz she doesnt want the rifle in the house so i told her i stashed it in the woods> but its really behind my dresser lol i dont why shes so pissed about i meen its not like my sister would hurt themselves with i have the triger lock on it and im the only with the key and it on my wallet chain so idk... i cleaned my room today!!

GILL IF U STILL WANT A CHINCHILLA LET ME KNOW! i can get a baby one for free my friend Brendan's mom breeds them so get back to me on that A.S.A.P.!

You say that you're down, now
Can't find a place to rest your head
The leaves have all fallen
And your garden is dead
Turning your back now
Ain't nothing left to say
No need for tomorrow
When you can't find today

When you can't find today, oh
When you can't find today, oh
Search all you want, oh
Well you won't find it here, oh
Well the fortunes you seek, oh
They were always right here
They were always right here

Alone once again, now
Walked a mile inside your head
This movie's been played now
All is done and all is said
You're running so fast now
You can't get away
No need for tomorrow
When you can't find today

When you can't find today, oh
When you can't find today, oh
Search all you want, oh
Well you won't find it here, oh
Well the fortunes you seek, oh
They were always right here
They were always right here

When you can't find today, oh
When you can't find today, oh
Search all you want, oh
Well you won't find it here, oh
Well the fortunes you seek, oh
They were always right here, oh
Search all you want, oh
It was always right here
It was always right here

wats up mutha fuckas!? the past few days have ben pretty cool. i skipped this week of school 2 whole days i RULE!!! naw i ve been with with Sean for a while and we are gonna star a band soon and i meet Chris for the 1st time last night and hes awesome at guitar and craig good too so bam 2 singers and 2 guitarists so we just need a drummer and bassist but it wont be that hard yeah i got a new job YAY! for me A-T taxi service and livery i just sit in my own office and smoke cigarettes and watch tv and answer the phones pretty sweet huh! yeah dude i start n monday!!!! im kinda pissed the red sox won on wensday! only cuz i was able to be kenmore square DAMMIT i wanted to rob daddys music junkie with alex and shit but oh well at least we won!!!!

Fuck Yerself,
Dirty Dave

verse:1
i heard you yelling
i didnt care
your the one thats going no where
yer friends think uve changed
yer the one that locked in a cage
doing things u cant handle
the life uve choosen isnt a good one
OD'ed on drugs and drinking to much
yer gonna regret the time uve wasted and such
how can you tell me that im nothing
when yer the lowlife at least im doing something at all
yer not the same and yer gonna fall
tell me i suck, yer right we didnt fuck
yer the one straving for attention
cutting yerself with glass and lying the streets
i show no affection
i luagh at you with pity
and you have the balls to say my life is shitty

pre chorus:
shut up, u dont know
u act to much, people see how bad you suck
this will the last time u hear me
this is what i think of you

chorus:
you think yer something your not
and you think yer so hot
i think i hate you and i know youll talk your shit
if this song on the radio i know ud hear it
it would be a hit

verse:2
u were so jelous and so inscure
hated yerself but what for
i feel bad for the next guy for sure
youll do the same to him and hell leave you too
in the end yer alone what would u do
u think im worng?
u know its true
only god knows how bad i feel sorry for you
think real heard who u think this song is to
what else to say
but go away

pre chorus:
i told you straight up
and i dont give a fuck
i needed to get this out
and this is what i think of you

chorus:
you think yer something your not
and you think yer so hot
i think i hate you and i know youll talk your shit
if this song on the radio i know ud hear it
u know ull love and i meen every word
fuck yerself

thats what i think of you
thats what i think of YOU
THATS WHAT I THINK OF YOU!!!
NO THIS I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!
whats wrong with you
-shiner


BOSTON RED SOX WORLD SERIES CHAMPIONS!!!

Baby, I am a survivor
Baby, I'm on fire
Baby, I'm bout to creep up inside ya
Getting high all day, drinking whiskey all night
Flipping of the police when them tricks pass by
I'm that fool next door, always late with his rent
I'm that loser on the couch, watching Springer and getting head
Dreaming about a better time, better place, better life
Looking for that quick fix, and tweeking all night

[Chorus]

Just killing time

Kiss that world goodbye
Its all over now
Nothing is over now

God knows I tried
But no one understands me
The black sheep of the family
My enemies - they try to over take me
Burning and looting till Babylon break me
Look me in the eyes baby, ride with me
I can take it there, ride with me
I know what you want, where you live, what you need
I can make it real, hold it down for you, feel you bleed

[Chorus]

I keep my eyes on the stars
That's where I come from
Belt of Orion
Son of the Sun God
You know my name, I'm The Conqueror
The Lion
King, Ka Maya Maya& come
Twenty Twelve, come twelve tribes, come twelve strands, come twelve lives
Twelve steps, twelve months, twelve drug dealers
All make bail, kicked cause of the crowded jails
Sex and violence sells
Twelve serial killers, twelve dead without a trail or a trace&
It's prime time, the fight night, pay per view, suicide, the bee sting
butterfly

yeah today was fucking cool, i think im gonna stop smokin weed. i gave criag the rest of my hash and gave him my bong, gave shawn his pipe back. im gona really try this time!!! few! umm yeah today i got my cds in the mail; Holywood, Anti-Christ Superstar, Iowa, Alive or just breathing (with jesse leach), and Ozzfest 2001<--- just cuz it has AWESOME songs on it... we got rid of Carly today but she went to my friends steve who lives less than 2 minutes away so i get to see her al the time. hung out with Black Shawn today hes still the shit and met up with Craig at the skatepark.. i fucked up my shin again, hung out with this cool dude at the stoughton train station and went home talked to my mom about my secret ive been hiding for like 3 years now and im goin to the doctors soon I HOPE to see whats with me.. im so scared of doctors.. but i neeed to get better.. my throat still hurts but eh what ever!
well im out

Dave Shiner

im fucking sick!!! i think its from not wearing a jacket to the show cuz damn it was fuckin cold. my throat hurts like hell, my mom druged me with this cold and flu drink that made me feel half fuckin drunk. i think i fell asleep awake, like ever get that feeling wen u think yer asleep but u know yer awake? yeah that how i felt and still kinda feel that way. i didnt do that much today craig came over and ave me his old trench (its fucking sweet). got into a fight with shawn yesterday over fuckin shannon!!! im starting to hate her!!! idk yeah i braided my hair yesterday well that pretty much it so ima go now LATER!!!\

Dirty Dave

ok yeah man this weekend was pretty chill, went to craigs dads house in brockton for the weekend blah blah blah!!!


the concert

ok woke up at 11
painted my face, ad also painted cory's face
got to the palladium around 215
got in line for a few minutes
then went to the mall SAW GILL ~weird~
ass slided down the damn electric stairs for some hot chicks
left the mall
got back in line chilled there met some cool people
found boyle YEAH MAN!!!
chilled
punched some random juggalos clock and cut the fuckin shit outa my hand
got inside got to the front
1st act was fucking dope Filthy Imagrentz were fuckin fresh man
ABK was sweet
Esham was tight
Mack 10 was good but he made me made cuz the damn song "get ya mosh on" or whatever made erryone crazy but it chill
The ICP set was awesome but everyone was pushin and fighting and shit so i just left the crownd and sat down
found cory and shit
walked to the main entrance of the palladium and saw gill being basically carried out of the show
went back to watch the rest of the show and got there just in time and I GOT ON STAGE 1st time baby
show ends
me cory and craig waits for corys mom in the fucking cold soaked in faygo
got to craigs house smoked a joint nd passed out

yeah awesome show

Love,
Dirty Dave

hey whats up it been while but ive been busy doin nothing.. so yeah im in night school its preety chill, my birthday was october 2nd 17 years old now! im goin to the ICP shot this sunday so yeah.. idk i leave you with a song....

Love,
Dirty Dave

Nirvana -Dimension Seven (D-7)

Straight as an arrow
Defect, defect
Not straight, not so straight
Reject, reject
Towards anti-social
Solo, solo
Standing on the stairs
Cold, cold morning
Ghostly image of fear
Mayday, mayday
Gonna leave this region
They'll take me with them
Dimension seven


oh yeah i gota a DATE!! this monday with Amber, then im goin to chill with Dana on wednsday so life it ok right now!

Some will learn; many do.
Cover up or spread it out.
Turn around, had enough,
Pick and choose or pass it on.
Buying in, heading for
Suffer now or suffer then.
Its bad enough
I want the fear... need the fear

[Pre-Chorus]
Cause he's alone (he has become)
He's alone (he has become)

[Chorus:]
Well if they're making it, making it
Then they're pushing it, pushing it
And they're leading us along
The hassle of all the screaming fits
That panic makes remorse

After all, what's the point?
Cause levitation is possible.
If you're a fly; achieved and gone
Theres time for this and so much more.
It's typical - create a world
A special place of my design
To never cope or never care just use the key

[Pre-Chorus]
Cause he's alone (where have we gone)
He's alone (where have we gone)

[Chorus]

Over and Over a slayn
Became
Over and Over a slayn
Became
Over and Over a slayn
Became
Over and Over a slayn
Became

we have no future, heaven wasn't made for me
we burn ourselves to hell, as fast as it can be
and i wish that i could be a king, then i'd know that i am not alone
maggots put on shirts, sell each others shit
sometimes i feel so worthless, sometimes i feel discarded
i wish that i was good enough, then i'd know that i am not alone

death is policeman, death is the priest
death is the stereo, death is a tv
death is the tarot, death is an angel and
death is our god, killing us all

she puts the seeds in me, plant this dying tree
she's a burning string and i'm just the ashes
she put the seeds in me, plant this dying tree
she's a burning string and i'm just the ashes

They say freak
When your singled out
The red...
It filters through

So lay down
The threat is real
When his sight
Goes red again

Seeing red again

This change
He won't contain
Slip away
To clear your mind
When asked
What made it show?
The truth
He can't send to most

Seeing red again

They say freak
When your singled out
The red...
It filters through